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Tuesday Update: 12/13/05

As usual, time is just a flyin’ by these days! The remodel here at Younker was the big news of the weekend…it is really beautiful, that’s for sure. Matt’s new room is very nice and state of the art. He has a nice view out the window of the courtyard park. He also has a huge bathroom that we can wheel him into and use really easily. Tomorrow he will practice showering again with the physical therapist here in our room. He’s getting lots of practice for when he goes home.

Our trip home on Sunday went really well. We practiced walking to the bathroom and eating at the dining room table. He and I did pretty well together, but he still has some work to do. He has agreed to work his booty off this week to try and get a little stronger for the trip home. The therapists are also having me work with him more in therapy to help get an idea of how we are working together and give us any tips to help out. They have a really nice new gym here at Younker with a mock bedroom. We practiced getting in and out of the bed and off of a couch etc. It’s all such good practice! Matt enjoyed lounging on the couch, catching up on some reading (I think he has about 15 magazines waiting for him). He can read pretty easily, but has a harder time holding onto the magazine and turning the pages. He’s still working on his fine motor skills, and his right hand isn’t quite as cooperative as he wants it to be. The Botox has definitely helped his muscles to relax a bit and they’re not spasming like they were before. But, he still doesn’t have the control and strength in it just yet. He can write though, and tie his shoes…so we know it’s definitely coming along. Just going to take some time. Like everything…it will come in time.

Matt and I are getting geared up for his overnight trip home this Saturday night. It will be so good for us to have some time alone to do things around the house together. Matt is really looking forward to sleeping in our own bed and waking up at our house. It will be so strange to have him home again…and so good as well. I ask you all to pray that it goes well, that we are able to work out the kinks…and that we feel confident in our ability to take care of each other.


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