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Tuesday Update: 6/6/06

I just thought I’d try and put one more post out there before things get really crazy this week. We are hanging in there, trying to make sure we’ve got all our ducks in a row for both our trip to IA City and to Omaha. It is HARD trying to pack for a three month stay! Matt usually packs a huge bag for our week long trips to Minnesota, so this will be ridiculous, I’m sure! I have a feeling the car is going to be LOADED!! You know Matt, he always likes to look good!

We had another really good weekend. My parents were back for a visit and we had lots of fun hanging out with them. Meghan and Matthew were adorable as ever. Little Matthew is full of smiles and we just love to make him smile and give him lots of kisses. We spent time visiting and playing with the kids Saturday and Sunday. It was so good for me to see my Mom and Dad! I’m so glad they could both come up before Matt goes to Omaha and I am so grateful Mom is staying this week to help out with the dogs and be there with us in IA City!!!

Sunday, we also went up to church for one last service before Matt heads out to Omaha. It was a tearful service for me. I was so filled with emotion and all the hymns we sang really touched me. I was feeling so grateful to everyone there who has supported us with meals, cards, visits, and more…I just wanted them all to know how much that has meant to us. I tried to thank them all during the praise and petition part of the service, but I got so choked up…I’m not sure if my whole sentiment got across. I know that while we may never know why this happened to us, we can take comfort in knowing that God has brought so many wonderful, loving people into our lives. They have been a true blessing to us both.

Last night Matt’s therapists had a little going away party for him with brownies and ice cream. While today is his last day, a few of the therapists are going to be gone today, so they wanted to do it when they were all available. They made up a certificate of accomplishment for him which said:
‘In honor of successful completion through avid participation and self-motivation, this certificate is presented to one Matthew Karwoski this fifth day of June, year Two-Thousand and six. Matt, remain confident in your mind, body, and spirit, as you have proven to be an inspiration through your determination and have validated your abilities through your participation and performance.’

It was very sweet…and also touching. I can sit here and go on and on about how strong Matt is…and how determined he is…but to have them put it on paper for him, really meant a lot. I am sure that all the people he will be working with in Omaha will love and admire him as all his therapists to date have. He is truly an awesome person and I continue to be so honored to be his wife. Even though this experience has been one full of challenges, complications, hardship, and fear…I know that there is a purpose here, and I know that God will bring us through it all together…stronger and ever closer in our love for each other and our faith in Him.

I will try and post an update as soon as possible on the embolization, as well as the trip to Omaha. Please be praying for Matt on Thursday. Pray that the procedure is a success and the AVF has been blocked for good!!


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