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Tuesday Update: 09/26/06

Well, it has been a few days since Matt’s surgery, and he’s hanging in there. It has been a long few days for him. The surgery was pretty intense and really took a lot out of him. The doctor said he would be more sore than the typical patient and I’m looking at Matt now going ‘NO KIDDING!?’ His eyes are still incredibly red, and his eyelids are still somewhat swollen. They have gotten better, but he still looks pretty beat up. I called the 24 hour doctor number last night to ask about the texture of his eyes. The ‘whites’ of his eyes are also somewhat puffy and look like they are covered in red gel. I wasn’t sure if that was a common occurrence, so I called to ask. The doctor explained that in performing the surgery, they have to peel up the top layer of the eye, and when they put it back in place it is not uncommon for fluid/blood to build up underneath. He assured me that it will go down, and the fluid will reabsorb in time. I just hope he’s feeling better before the weekend. We have a busy and fun weekend planned with a party on Saturday night and also the annual Cruise to the Woods is on Sunday. We are both looking forward to both!

I was looking back recently to my post last year at this time about the cruise. It was so painful for me that day, thinking of how much Matt had been looking forward to going…missing it was so hard. I remember writing about the exhaust that was delivered to our house after he was admitted to the hospital…and how emotional I was over those stupid car parts. I am so grateful that we will be able to go on the cruise this year with our dear friends and family. Jay and Chad are going to take Matt up in the Trans Am, and I will bring Hope and little Matthew in our car. We will be hooking up with a group of other friends in Ankeny and the boys will merge in with the cruise then. I will take lots of pictures…it will be a great time, I’m sure! Matt wasn’t sure he wanted to go, because he can’t drive himself…but it will be so great to ride in the car and experience the fun with everyone else. Matt’s old buddy Derek is lining up a golf cart for him at the fair grounds in Fort Dodge, so he can drive him around the show! I can’t thank everyone enough for helping make this happen for Matt. He is so blessed with your friendship. You stand by him and make him feel like himself again…it is so important, and so special…I can’t really due it justice with words.


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