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Sunday Update: 03/23/08

Happy Easter!!

Although it wasn’t much of a springy Easter…I just know that it will be spring soon enough. Today I spent the afternoon up at my sister’s house, celebrating Easter with lots of family. It is always good to see everyone and visit, though I sorely missed Matt and my parents. Family get togethers are never the same without my parents…and it was especially odd without Matt. But I was able to share photos from my trip and talk about how things are going so far for Matt and for me here at the new house…which is all good and positive.

Matt and I talked again tonight and things are going well for him. He said that Mary went out and got some DVDs of TV shows that they are going to start watching. Matt said they plan to get together every other evening and watch some shows together on Matt’s laptop. Tim and Mary came over Saturday night and watched one of Matt’s movies with him. I think it’s just great that Tim and Mary are there – not just to look out for and help Matt…but to be there with him and spend time together. I know it really helps Matt feel less isolated. What a blessing it is to have them there.

Matt and I were also talking about how hard it is to be apart and how he’s been feeling a little homesick this past week. I told him that when he starts to feel down and wonder about whether or not it is worth it to be there…to remember all the pieces that had to fall into place for him to have this experience. To me, there is no denying that God intended Matt to have this experience. There are just TOO many things that happened at all the right times…I truly believe it was meant to be. I know that more changes will reveal themselves in time. We just have to be patient and trust that God is in control. It’s not easy…but no one said it would be. I think that is what faith is all about. Matt told me today that he feels good about the positive changes that he’s noticed already, and that he spoke to Ruth again on Friday and that helped him as well. I know that seeing her and talking to her always help put things in perspective for him. I think it’s just knowing that she went through something very similar to Matt and can understand many of his feelings and experiences…there is a certain kind of closeness that he shares because of their histories.

Things are slowly starting to settle into some sort of normalcy here at the new house. I’m starting to get used to things and setting up a routine with the animals – who have both just been so good! I can’t wait for the last few construction details to be finished, like the driveway and the sod. That will make a huge difference. I will also be happy not to live in a construction zone!! But I can’t tell you how wonderful it is to have all my main living space on one floor, how much I enjoy the laundry room being up here, all the natural light, the open floor plan, and the roomy bedrooms. It is all just such a blessing!!! I can’t wait to share it with friends and family!!


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