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Thursday Update: 03/27/08

It’s hard to believe we’re closing in on the end of Matt’s first month in China! At times it seems that it has gone quickly, and other times it seems like June 1st is an eternity away. It helps that we are able to talk to each other a couple times a week, and of course we e-mail each other everyday. Did I mention that I need to thank Al Gore for inventing the internet? It’s really helped us a lot! (ha)

All in all, I’d say Matt and I are both doing well…keeping busy and staying positive. But, we both also have our moments…moments when we just miss each other so much. I might see something or hear about something and want to show him or tell him right away, but I can’t. I just miss having him around…to talk to, to hug, to share funny thoughts from my day with…I will be so happy when he is back home again…completing our little family. In the mean time, I am determined to fill my time with friends, family, and fun!

Tonight I have someone coming out to measure windows for blinds and talk about possibly ordering window treatments…FUN! Tomorrow a bunch of us from work are going out to celebrate our promotions…also FUN! Saturday should be a nice quiet day at home. I’m looking forward to sleeping in and cleaning the house for the first time…trying to set up some sort of cleaning routine in the new house…FUN! (Well, it is for me anyway.) And Sunday I’m looking forward to church and then watching the race…FUN again!! (Even though it’s not the same without Matt.)

Things are starting to feel more settled in the new house, having rearranged things a few different times. I think I have a good flow going now. The boxes are dwindling and it’s starting to feel more like a home and less like a construction zone. The BIG news this week is that we finally got our driveway poured! YAHOO!! I came home yesterday and they were just finishing up…of course it’s raining today, which hopefully won’t cause any problems with it!! I can walk on it this weekend, and drive on it after 2 weeks. I can’t WAIT to be able to pull the car up in the garage…but for now, I’ll be happy to just walk up a paved driveway, instead of carefully maneuvering over plywood and pallets (not easy to do in heels!). Of course, these next few days of walking Buddy out in the sandy/muddy back yard will be fun…but it’s only temporary, so I’m sure I can handle it!

Matt also sent me some updated pictures of him at the gym. I think he looks great…what a site for sore eyes!! (Have I mentioned how much I miss him??) Of course, I see the ‘rehab beard’ has returned…the beard he always grows when I’m not around all the time. It’s just easier not to have to mess with shaving and I’m not there to give him crap about his ‘scruffiness’, so I think he enjoys letting it all hang and GROW out!

He’s been working on walking in the parallel bars, which of course is nothing new to him, but I think gives them a better idea of how he walks and in a safer environment. You can see Bob standing by his bike and also behind him in the parallel bars.
He’s never far away…that’s for sure! Bob also brought in the plants here, which are supposed to promote good health…or ‘something’ to quote Matt.
They’ve been getting along well, and things are going well. Matt was finally approved to start up his herbal soaks again this week…I guess the wound has finally healed! (I’m just SURE that Neosporin would have done the trick much faster…but what do I know!?)

Matt has had several people tell him that his speech seems to be improving, though he still remains somewhat skeptical. He also noticed that his chewing, swallowing, eating all seem to be returning to a more normal feel. He said that before he always had to think a lot about chewing and when to swallow, but recently he has noticed that his tongue is moving the food all around like normal, and swallowing as he’s eating…without thinking about it – it’s just more normal and natural feeling. It’s a little thing, but definitely something new!

Matt got his first pieces of mail this week too, a couple cards! I’m not sure how long it took to get there, so I’m not sure I’ll be sending him much in the mail. E-mail is so quick and easy for me, that’s probably what I’ll do most. He loves getting all the messages – I know it lifts him up to know so many people are rooting for him and just keeping in touch. It helps…a lot!


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