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Friday Update: 10/21/05

Blessings for the day:
Matt has been increasing curious about his injury and the past few weeks. The other night as I typed my last post, he spelled out ‘would u read me the blog’. So, I spent the next hour reading him all the posts I had written. We both got emotional a few times, reading over what we’ve all been through. We talked about those early weeks back in the CCU. I told him that I spent the first week and a half sleeping in the hospital, as did my mom. I told him how his dad, sister, and my mom took turns staying up all night with him…that someone was always watching over him. He was so moved by that. I told him about the generous gifts, acts of love and kindness, and many prayer chains he has been on. Today we read through some of the many cards he has received and he spelled out ‘I m so blessed’. He was very, very emotional listening to the kind words that so many of you have written to him.

Yesterday, he wrote ‘I just want to go back to work’. He just loves his job! I told him of the support he has received from co-workers and the staff at various Menard’s stores. He was very touched to hear of the cards, letters, plants, and balloons he has received from his colleagues. They meant so very much to him…I can’t even tell you. The support he has received has been amazing to say the least. He is so moved, and so grateful for it.

It has been so very good for me to get this kind of insight from Matt. To hear in his own words how he feels about things, and for me to share with him all that people have done for us…it just makes me feel more complete. Slowly, I see Matt coming back to me and I feel myself becoming whole again.

He continues to do well in all his therapies and is such a hard worker. The therapists go on and on about how much they enjoy working with him because no matter what he gives them his all. They’ve only begun to see the real Matt that we all know and love!

Matt also told me the other night – ‘I am up to visits’. So, he welcomes visitors!!! I was so glad to hear that! It just tells me he is feeling much more confident. The best times for visits are still in the early evening between 4-7 on weeknights, Saturday afternoons, and Sundays. He still can’t say a whole lot, but he has been giving lots of handshakes, hugs, and waves. Of course, he can spell things out too and talk that way! How wonderful for that!!!

Still no official word on the transfer to Younker yet. I will keep you posted on what happens with that. They will be reviewing his therapy notes again today.


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